boysordeath's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - the thing about that last entry is i know that the expectations i put around scott aren't really fair--like to expect someone who gets overwhelmed by me trying to connect to acknowledge me making him a playlist is a little insane. and i know i'm making myself into this huge victim when i have put up with this kind of thing for a long time and in reality, it felt lucky that he even put my wallet on the porch... sad. i can't believe i love someone so much who doesn't value me very much or understand why that would seem sort of like a big deal, like pretty rude. sigh. i'm so tired. and i feel kind of compelled to show up for him still and explain that i'm just this reactive bc i need his love. but i mean i've been in kind of a lot of weird heartbreak lately and probably not even thinking straight. i've just maybe never loved someone else so much before - "when i forget about me". 2:30 p.m. - 2016-05-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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