boysordeath's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- bpd bunny i've been having a hard time giving up nick.. i've been having a hard time giving up dating for a while. i was thinking of this when i saw the cutest baby rabbit today. i am into animal medicine so i looked up the meaning. highlights: rabbits are solitary, burrow and spend time alone, being quiet and aware of their environment. they are associated with fear and manifesting fears. sometimes being strong is in running away. burrow into the fear and give it up! it seems that nick has BPD and maybe i do to some degree, as well. i found it helpful to read about it and consider how relationships that are so intense right away end up being very "loaded" and it feels terrible when they fall apart. so true. i keep feeling really angry about how he liked me so much right away and said a lot of things like, "this is why I believe in god. it seems like fate". i knew this was too intense at the time, but when you really want to be loved in this way, you want to believe that it could possibly be a feeling that lasts. 8:34 p.m. - 2014-05-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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